I haven't touched this in a little bit, sorry to those who would follow it. I already know that I am extremely bad at keeping up with any kind of blog or website. I have a very scattered mind.
To be completely honest, I really do not know how to talk about my life right now. I feel like I'm stuck in this pit of mediocre. Nothing is going completely, and utterly wrong, though there are many changes coming about that I would rather not come to realize just yet, and nothing is going exceptionally well. I am stuck in this little spot. It's like running on a treadmill, I'm running and running, but I'm not getting any further and I'm not going away. I don't know, all I feel like doing lately is sitting in bed, moping my life away haha. 本当の引き籠もり。。。ww
Drawing as well has been tormenting me to no end. I cannot draw anything of variety lately, not one bit! Everything looks very much the same, same expression, direction of face, pose, etc. I keep trying to break out of that comfort zone, but it is so hard. I don't know why. I have so many ideas in my head, they just never translate to paper. Frustratinggg.
In other, more interesting news, in my German film and cinema class we have been watching black and white silent films, and I must say that I find them to b e extremely interesting as well as beautiful. Last night we watched The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari, which is world renowned. I loved it, so bizarre and insane, really my cup of tea haha. The sets themselves were just amazing, I was in love!
Such a beautiful look to it. Everything about it!
I know exactly how you feel miss to a compelte degree , life in general for everyone seems to be a endless cycle of doing a routine over and over without even thinking about it then we find we lost weeks and months to doing absolutely nothing with our lives, its so disheartening =s....and the drawing thing I think its because of that rut that your mind just can't be made to think creatively cause there has been nothing in ur life to inspire it normally most people can draw something just from some sort of spark but like when your life is like so redundant..its like...damn why am i even drawing this..?.....so yea really all I can say is ...somehow we'll get somewhere D=.... and when that time comes we can on crack again =D
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I can't do anything bout the wanting to get out of the city tho so , http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pf28dtrcsYU here hopes this helps =3 it calms me and I reflect alot on better days (psss 720P is your friend)